Create Your Sunshine

Someone PLEASE tell me why I put this off for so long? I’ve ripped it all apart and I can’t figure out where I thought I was benefiting from NOT going to the eye doctor. I will honestly admit, I do not know when the last time I went to the eye doctor was. Three years, four, six? I hate to say it, but I’m leaning more towards the latter.

Over the last year, but definitely over the last six months I noticed that I wasn’t seeing well. It started out that my contacts would seem too dry out a bit too quickly. Then they sort of started sticking and things were a bit blurry. Then I was having a hard time seeing at night and so I stopped driving after 6pm. I’m 29 years old. That’s not normal.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I knew I was over due, I just kept putting it off. I didn’t have insurance. It would be expensive. I can wait a little bit longer. Excuse after excuse I found not to go and day after day it got worse. I really don’t like wearing my glasses and so day in and day out I suffered with a prescription that was useless to me. Just how useless I had yet to discover.

Fast forward to last Wednesday. I woke up and and noticed that I was out of one of my contacts and it was the end of the month and almost time to change them. Do I re-order the contacts that I currently have knowing that they don’t really work, potentially causing serious damage to my eyes or do I suck it up and go to the eye doctor. FINALLY I chose to suck it up! I called up the very next minute and made an appointment for that afternoon.

A few hours later I nervously sat in the examination chair and started to read the letters off the screen. Right eye, not too shabby. I read about 4 out of 6 letters on the bottom row. Left eye, you’re up. I looked. I stared. I squinted. I blinked. NOTHING. I spit the truth when I tell you I could not read a single letter small OR large. I had no idea. All this time I was thinking it wasn’t that bad, I’ll keep trucking a little bit longer. Ha! More like torturing myself with semi-blindness.

Almost a week later and I could not be happier! How much of life I was missing! It’s so amazing and wonderful to see clearly. Just taking that one little step towards self-care, making that phone call, was all it took to start a trickle effect. I’m enjoying things a lot more and more comfortable going new places and best of all, I can drive at night! YES! Definitely not going to put that off again!

What’s something that you know you should do for yourself, but you always come up with a reason or excuse as to why you shouldn’t? What’s one step that you can take to start doing that one thing? If you feel comfortable to share, please leave a comment below. I’d love to hear from you!

♥ xo