My journey of healing and discovery through conscious and abundant self care.


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Who Am I?

Who am I but the dust of the Most High
Drifting like a leaf in the summer sky
Hoping one day you will see, that what’s inside of you,
is what’s inside of me.

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted. Even longer since I’ve written something. As per usual, life has had it’s fair share of ups and downs, changes and transitions. I’ve been taking time to process all of it, grounding myself in their lessons and working to build the most kick-ass toolbox to handle whatever life throws my way.

This past January, my world was absolutely rocked to it’s core. My grandmother, one of the women in my life that helped shape who I am today, crossed over the rainbow bridge to the eternal world of souls. To be perfectly honest, I have never in my life felt grief like that. Ever. I’ve lost loved ones and pets, but this was new. It was different. It was completely devestating. It’s only been six months since she passed and I still have not quite found a way to remember her without feeling like I am dying inside. I know it will come with time, maybe, so until then I have started to shift my focus to radical, determined, abundant, intensely loving self care. This blog will chronical my journey of healing.

I haven’t mentioned this much previously, mostly because I never truly knew what was going on, but I have been in daily pain for over 10 years. Throughout the years I’ve gone to various doctors for various issues, but none of them gave me a direct or correct answer. This daily pain is usually coupled with migraines, nausea, extreme coldness, and a bunch of other odd and interrelated symptoms. I finally got so fed up with it all that I decided to try one more time to go to the Doctor to get an answer. I felt like I had tried as many ways and ideas as possible to manage it all, but without knowing what it was, I was running out of options. This go-around I was in a completely different state, halway across the country. That should increase my odds of getting an answer, right? After a bit of debating (and even more procrastination) I scheduled my appointment with a new doctor. Fast forward to several visits later, a second opinion and a lot of connecting the dots an ah-ha’s, it was determined that I was dealing with Fibromyalgia. To be perfectly honest, at this point, I wasn’t that surprised. Suspicion or not, it was nice it finally have an answer. I also found out that my EBV (Epstein-Barr Virus) levels were a bit higher than the normal 15-30%, mine were just over 400%, answering the question I constantly asked myself: “Why am I SO tired?!”.

Armed with my answers, I went home to begin the intense and much needed work of releasing the guilt I had begun to shoulder trying to be “normal”. I started to create a self-care routine that would support and honour this body and life that I was given. I’m not ashamed to take naps or go to bed early. I make sure I am filling my body with healthy foods and ample H2O. I spend a lot of time meditating in my balcony garden, in fact, that’s where I am writing this right now. It’s heaven. Not only do I get to watch all my little plants and seedlings grow, but there are so many birds and butterflies and bunnies that play in the grass and trees here. My balcony garden helps me feel closer to my grandmother too, which is healing in its own way. Slowly I am learning how to love myself fully, how to say no, how to support who I am and where I am, right now, in this moment.

♥ xo

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Are you ready?!

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Create Your Sunshine is getting revamped!!

Stay tuned for new monthly blog posts on anything and everything as I navigate my journey of healing and discovery through conscious and abundant self care. There are so many different ways to bring joy, creativity, imagination and play and self care into your life. Below are pictures of some of the ways I help to bring sunlight into my life!

Thank you so much for being here. When we come together as a community to support eachother, magic happens!! 🙂

♥ xo

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Feel free to share in the comments below the things that bring sunlight into your life!

HOOPING • MEDITATION • CRYSTALS • ESSENTIAL OILS

Hooping Meditation Oils and Crystals

PAINTING • MANDALAS • COLOUR • TINY DOTS

Painting Collage

HIKING • READING • COOKING • GARDENING

Reading Hiking Gardening Cooking

YOGA • RETREATS • LEARNING • GROWING

Yoga Collage


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September ~ A Month in Pictures

 

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One of my newest paintings. Universal LOVE, baby!

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Sunset from the top of the Rocky Mountains, RMNP

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Hubby love!!! Rocky Mountain National Park!

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Phish in Denver with Filicia!!!! Yay!!!

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Hells yes they can!!! Shout out to our friends Kung Fu on this one!!

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Sunset from the top of Sugarloaf, Boulder, CO.

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My garden plans for 2016! Can’t wait!!!

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Ice Cream Social with my ladies & gents!!! So much fun! 🙂

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Mmm. Yes. Let’s j u s t breath.


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August ~ A Month in Pictures

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Gift painting for my yoga school – Holistic Yoga School!

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New leggings, new tapestry, new journal! All set! 🙂

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My beautiful sunflower! So tall!!

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Ahhh! Double Rainbow!!!! 🙂

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Roadtripping to CT! Packed with all the essentials!

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Painting I made for my niece! ❤ Love her!

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Butterfly garden at Norwalk Aquarium in Norwalk, CT.

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Butterfly garden at Norwalk Aquarium in Norwalk, CT.

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Butterfly garden at Norwalk Aquarium in Norwalk, CT.

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My and my mom at Norwalk Aquarium!

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Jellyfish!

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Another successful barn party in the books! Thank you Becky and Lea!

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Colouring with my sweetie pie niece!

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We are on our way back to CO with company!!! 🙂

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Whoa! Hello giant zucchini!!!!


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July ~ A Month in Pictures

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Huzzah! Phish tickets are here!!!! :)I’m so excited I could eat them!

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Elephant pants with my elephant phone case! Check out the pants at http://www.theelephantpants.com!!! Phone case is from Amazon. Wheeee!

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Put your heart and soul where I can see them shiiiiine!!! New painting! ❤

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Blossoms blooming. Dots swirling. Another new creation!

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A painting that I donated to my yoga school (www.http://holisticyogaschool.com.) for our Earth Medicine Wheel workshop!!

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Oh my freaking God! My tweenage dreams come true!!! HANSON!!!!!!!!

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Nommity nom nom. Kale & brussels with grilled onions and a hardboiled egg in a dijon mustard sauce. Off the cuff – just cuz….

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Mm! A little yoga in the garden! Tree pose variation. 🙂

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Holy Zucchini! Didn’t even know this bad boy was growing!!!

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Collaboration painting done with friends in celebration of my birthday!

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Panoramic view of the CSU gardens and gazebo!

 


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June ~ A Month in Pictures

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Goofing Around with angles!

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Zen garden creations!

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Beer tasting at Southern Sun Brewery in Boulder!

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3rd Clothes Swap! It’s been so successful, it’s turned bi-annual!

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Friends at the airport!

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Blue tootsies!!

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Why thank you. Thank you very much!! 🙂

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Horse tooth falls with the guys!

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On the way out of Breckenridge, CO.

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Loveland Pass Sunset.

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Those Rockies sure are breathtaking….in more ways than one!

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Shadow art.

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Standing on top of the world!

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My buddies visiting from CT!

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Proof. Haha! 🙂

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Yummy yummy snacks and treats!

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Blissed out after yoga practice.


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May ~ A Month in Pictures

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Horsetooth Reservoir

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Veggie & Baked Tofu Rice Wraps. YUM!

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Coming to the CYS Etsy shop soon!!!

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Travel Altars!! Coming soon!!!

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Travel Altars in the making! 🙂

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My own altar – featuring my Labradorite and Opalite pendulums!!

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A raging Cashe La Poudre river!!

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A sweet little meditation spot my husband found!

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My newest (and kinda my most favourite) painting!