Oh. My. Gosh. I think that I am a paradox. So my biggest thing is being comfortable with myself. Being able to love myself for who I am , no matter what. To live and thrive and breathe in my own skin without judgement or envy for anyone else.
Currently I am doing Oprah’s 30 day challenge to find your purpose and who you really are (thanks Taraleigh!). Today I am on day 7 and as of 5:58pm I have still yet to come up with another compliment. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking. Well I am pretty independent, I think, as I reminisce about the times where I defied odds and persevered and just trusting that I would figure it out. Except for all those times that I couldn’t go to the store on my own, or I wanted someone to come with me on a trip because I’m scared of public transportation, or the million other times when I have created excuses to take people with me because I was too scared to go alone. So if I wrote down that I was independent, wouldn’t it be a lie?
Maybe. Maybe not. What if that little bit of independence is just the start? What if by writing it down and seeing it day after day awakens something inside me and all those walls and excuses I built come tumbling down. What if the more I started to believe it, the more it came true?
I know I am independent in tough situations and I know that I will stand up for anything that I believe in. And if you mess with someone I love and care about, well whoa buddy, watch out! I’m starting to think it’s time I start believing in myself, even if there’s some cold-hard excuses that claim otherwise. I made those “rules” and aren’t rules supposed to be broken anyway?
So cheers to affirming new truths and loving myself infinitely more than even moments before. Yes, this life is most definitely going to rock!
Wow. That is the first word that comes to mind when I think about the workshop that I attended this weekend. I had the absolute pleasure of seeing Christine Hassler, Cora Poage (with Sexy Soul Wellness) and Amir Zoghi at the New York Open for the Intuitive Warrior workshop. The underlying theme of the workshop was following your intuition. Each speak was intriguing, passionate, articulate, beautiful and energetic. They got me feeling and those feeling helped me come a l i v e.
I used to try to see the bigger picture. How everything that we do is connected as a whole. Sometimes it truly makes me dizzy!! I try to understand how we all think differently on different topics and how everyone has and is entitled to their own opinion. I see how every day little things influence us and change the path that we were on, even ever so slightly. On the flip side, I’ve seen how certain things that we have grown accustomed to hold us stuck in our place.
Now I try to look at the world differently. I see that the world is truly made up of exactly what you think it is. This isn’t a “be positive all the time and only good things will come” kind of a post. I do believe that if we try to stay optimistic it will turn in our favour, but I like to be realistic too. But this world, truly is exactly how we choose to see it. We can choose to concentrate on the bad things, the bad people, bad rules and bad plans. Or you can try to find beauty in the gloomiest of days. You can try to find the lesson in the middle of the confusion.
Just keep searching for the truth. Find the spark within you that connects heart and mind, body and soul all together. Follow that urge, that longing, that little voice telling you it’s OK to take the risk, you’re going to be all right. Don’t hold back. You never know what’s waiting for you on the other side. It could be the most beautiful journey of them all. And you have the courage, I know you do. Every single one of us can truly be whatever we want to be. No dream is ever too far out of reach. No dream is ever too bold or too lofty. If we can dream it we can do it. I truly believe that. So listen to your heart. Follow what it’s telling you. Sit with it. Talk to it. Love your heart. It has all the answers. It’s known for a really long time. It will set…you f r e e . . . . . . . .
I love you. You can do this. I can do this. What a blissful, beautiful world this is!
I belong to an amazing group called “Virtual Love Fest”. It’s a group of great people looking to become a better version of themselves. It’s empowering, awakening, beautiful and I am so glad that I can be a part of it. For this month our calls focus on creating your dream life in 2013. To start off, we were asking to declare what we wanted to accomplish this year. I wanted to share my response with you. Please feel free to share a declaration of your own in the comments! 🙂
I want to be ME, wholeheartedly and unabashed. Live IN the moment, instead of getting wrapped up in the expectations. Give up my wallflower habits and start meeting people and talking to them. I live in such a fear-based world, sometimes lacking the ability to trust, which keeps me suck. I want to learn acceptance. I want to be able to appreciate things, people, myself as they truly are, RIGHT NOW, instead of focusing on what they can be, what should be change, what isn’t right. I want to truly break free from what is not serving me, realize that I truly have MORE than enough right now. I want to have LOVE be my first reaction instead of judgement and smile at perfect strangers just because it FEELS GOOD. I am so ready to love this world and love myself. It’s been too long and I’ve missed you.